Monday, September 18, 2006

Insanity

My mental health has been called into question on more than one occassion.

I question it myself daily.

But upon hearing the news of my new business venture, I believe people have deemed me as certifiably insane. The reaction is the same.

A quiet, speechless look of shock.

When they finally regain their faculties, their reaction is a variation on the following:

"So, you have three kids, homeschool, started back to college at a full 12 hours, AND you started a new business? ARE YOU CRAZY??!!!"

The answer would be, Yes. Indeed, I am.

To the average, logical, prudent person of normal common sense, this would be the behavior of a crazy person. One lacking in judgement and smart decision making skills. One who is on a one-way, crash course, doomed to run head on into Failure.

And if you had asked me to do all these things a year ago, I would have shook with fear and replied there is no way I could possibly do it all.

But I'm doing it.

Hubby told me it would make me better. He said I would be a better mother and a better teacher. And I couldn't see it. How could all that juggling possibly make me BETTER?.

I'll tell you.

Because I am away from my children for an entire day out of the week, I appreciate them so much more. I can be more patient and giving. Because I am given the opportunity to be out in the big, wide world that before was only am image on the TV screen, I am rediscovering who I am in it and how that relates to everyone else around me. I am given the opportunity to learn how to learn, which in turn, opens my eyes to my own little pupils at home and what they are facing in their education. Because I am pursuing the creativity that drives me and using it to better my situation. I have a purpose...more than one. I have found the freedom to give to myself, which makes it easier to give of myself, and the gift of that becomes sweeter. I'm remembering what it is like to have goals and dreams.

And I am not stressed.

In fact, I am happier because of it all.

Is my house clean?

Well...no.

But that is where the entire family becomes enriched by this experience. Hubby and the kids are learning to pitch in.

Groundbreaking, I know.

I dare say, our entire family is better for this wild ride.

Whodathunkit?

I guess Hubby was right.

Don't tell him I said that.

12 comments:

Bookworm said...

I admire that you are following your dreams and enriching that side of you that so often gets lost in mothers. I wish you nothing but success!!!! Laura

org junkie said...

Oops sorry, I posted the above comment from my daughter's blog. My apologies. Laura

Surfingmama said...

Hi there!

We would like to invite you to showcase your blog articles to millions of internet-surfing mums through the Surfingmama Blog Carnival. Make a difference for mums all over the world. Surfingmama focuses only on stuff that matters. For mums. Submit to us practical, useful & informative articles that mums need to make informed choices. Topics include childcare, preschool, child-education, child-safety, pregnancy, child-health, special-needs, breastfeeding, mothers-health, childbirth, getting-pregnant, and etc. Submit your article now to make it for the upcoming edition scheduled on 25 Sept 2006 at:

http://blogcarnival.com/bc/cprof_506.html

Heth said...

Seriously, that is awesome. And I'm all for getting the whole family to pitch in on the housework. Hooray for you!

shannon @ rocks in my dryer said...

I am so happy for you! And a little jealous. Would it be pathetic if I hid in your backseat so I could tag along to your classes with you one day and get all rejuvenated and refreshed? ;)

See you Friday!

Valarie said...

Isn't it great when hard choices work out? I'm so glad everything is coming together for you.

Cmommy said...

Jules did a fabulous job on the website and I wish you great success!

How sad am I that my little princess is now 8 and doesn't wear hairbows anymore?! I've saved her entire collection, though, so that tells you how priceless they can be...see, you are creating heirlooms! :-)Chrissy

Sarah said...

Well, you stress ME out when you say it, but you seem to have a handle on it. At least you can BLOG -- and that's what's important, right? :-)

I'm REALLY bad at encouraging/ having my family pitch in. Would you come train my family?

Mama of 2 said...

Hey Supermom you are a wonderful person and I commend you for all of your efforts. I would like to be more like you and maybe one day I will find the balance you seemed to have found.
I always enjoy coming to your blog and reading about your life and the lives of your family.
So keep up the great work and the inspiration you give me.

Goslyn said...

I am so glad things are working out for you! Way to go!

(and I really mean that, even though my verification word is - I'm not kidding - MOCKS)

Peggy said...

Friday is Mary from fireflies and frogs birthday. Please stopy by her blog and wish her a happy one.

yerdoingitwrong said...

I think what you're doing is awesome. Reach for the stars, girl. You can do it all!