My mental health has been called into question on more than one occassion.
I question it myself daily.
But upon hearing the news of my new business venture, I believe people have deemed me as certifiably insane. The reaction is the same.
A quiet, speechless look of shock.
When they finally regain their faculties, their reaction is a variation on the following:
"So, you have three kids, homeschool, started back to college at a full 12 hours, AND you started a new business? ARE YOU CRAZY??!!!"
The answer would be, Yes. Indeed, I am.
To the average, logical, prudent person of normal common sense, this would be the behavior of a crazy person. One lacking in judgement and smart decision making skills. One who is on a one-way, crash course, doomed to run head on into Failure.
And if you had asked me to do all these things a year ago, I would have shook with fear and replied there is no way I could possibly do it all.
But I'm doing it.
Hubby told me it would make me better. He said I would be a better mother and a better teacher. And I couldn't see it. How could all that juggling possibly make me BETTER?.
I'll tell you.
Because I am away from my children for an entire day out of the week, I appreciate them so much more. I can be more patient and giving. Because I am given the opportunity to be out in the big, wide world that before was only am image on the TV screen, I am rediscovering who I am in it and how that relates to everyone else around me. I am given the opportunity to learn how to learn, which in turn, opens my eyes to my own little pupils at home and what they are facing in their education. Because I am pursuing the creativity that drives me and using it to better my situation. I have a purpose...more than one. I have found the freedom to give to myself, which makes it easier to give of myself, and the gift of that becomes sweeter. I'm remembering what it is like to have goals and dreams.
And I am not stressed.
In fact, I am happier because of it all.
Is my house clean?
But that is where the entire family becomes enriched by this experience. Hubby and the kids are learning to pitch in.
Groundbreaking, I know.
I dare say, our entire family is better for this wild ride.
I guess Hubby was right.
Don't tell him I said that.